hi all,

i found this over on 24hourcampfire. this guy really needs lots of people praying for him, not only for salvation but also to get thru these tough times. please add him to your list and pass it along. he goes by mud bogger. we've got to help get another one of Gods' children out of the devils' grasp. thanks, R.D.


I have been having a horrible couple of months. The love of my life dumped me on July 4th.
I have had little forward momentum since that happend. Then I broke my knuckle with a framing hammer. After I got out of the cast I broke my windshield with my fist, after a phone call from my ex. Then 2 days after I got the cast off I hit the same knuckle with a 4lb sledge hammer. Broke it all to hell again.

I cant go to the rimrocks that I so love. Because I start to look off the cliffs and I start to think that they might be a way out. I wont go shooting or hunting unless somebody is with me either, because I no longer trust myself. I am also taking more risks now. I drive faster and dont slow down for corners. I have had my jeep on 2 wheels a couple of times now. But I dont care. I dont feel pain, and my body is virtually numb.

I honestly dont think life is all that great. Sure it has its good parts but for the most part it seems like a total let down. I really dont think prayers work. But then again I dont believe in god or any other religon. Prayers didnt save my baby brother from dying, they didnt save my heart. As a matter of fact I cant remember what they have done for me. My life has gotten to the point that I get about 1 hour of sleep at the most. I eat a small meal every couple of days. I have stopped trying to make life better as it doesnt seem to get any better. Thoughts of ending it all are crossing my mind alot more often( like a couple times a day). But I fight them off. For some reason there is still a lil bit of hope that life will get better.

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